L`ultima settimana di scuola

I just finished my last official week of school, next week there is only one back up lesson of patternmaking and then preparing for all the final exams. I can`t believe how fast time flies here. I moved to Milan about 10 months ago.

What a last week indeed!!! I have been like a sleepwalker 24/7. On Tuesday I slept in for 8 hours (you heard me, 8 hours) missing all the classes for the entire day. On Wednesday morning on my way to school, thing that I have been worried of happened, I passed my metrostop in San Babila. I was in such a coma that I got out at Palestra and returned one stop. Hahahaaa... How funny is that? ;o) I feel that I live in my own little bubble. I don`t see anybody or hear anybody around me. I drop things and I can`t remember anything, I have yellow post-its everywhere... which I don`t see. (I just woke up from 3 hour nap at 9PM...)

Here is my sweetheart Daniela with her hotpants in our patternmaking class.

I don`t know if it is normal to sleep 2-4 hours for a night for months or start the morning with painkillers (for my shoulders) and double espressos. Maybe... I have no appetite in the mornings which is scary, cause I used to live for breakfasts. If I eat something during the day, it is piadine* with prosciutto crudo and maybe later some nutella-toasts & espresso. Every single time I eat piadine I think about my dear gay boyfriend who says that: "There is way too many calories in them. Are you crazy to eat them amore???" ;o)

11 more days to go and after that I will get my life back. Hopefully!!!! I want to sleep, sleep and sleep...and finally continue running in the mornings. I loved it! And of course meet my friends for dinners and really start visiting all the cool clubs and bars in Milan. Can`t wait for that!

This Finnish dry bread I love!

I heard two shocking secrets today. My good friend is pregnant and I am extremely happy for her. But the other one was a friend divorcing... they just go married, what is going on with the world??? I just can`t stop thinking of that... and the fact that my friend will return home to Israel where the war is starting again... just gives me goose bumps.

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*Piadine are unleavened Italian flatbreads traditionally cooked over hot coals on an earthenware plate called a testo. Once cooked, piadine should be eaten piping hot, folded in two or cut into four or else rolled up. In Italy, piadine are often eaten with fresh Italian cheeses such as crescenza or stracchino, cured meats like prosciutto di Parma or salami, sautéed greens, fruits, jams, and even Nutella.

La lettera a te amore

I love you enough to fight for you,
compromise for you, and
Sacrifice myself for you if need be.
Enough to miss you incredibly when we’re apart,
no matter what the length of time it’s
for and regardless of the distance.
Enough to believe in our relationship,
to stand by it through the worst of times,
to have faith in our strength as a couple,
and to never give up on us.
Enough to spend the rest of my life,
be there for you when you need or want me,
and never, ever want to leave you or live without you.
I love you this much.

(Unknown)

...but I don`t know anymore, it is just too hard. You are right love, even though I don`t ask that much (...all I want is your heart...) I do deserve better. I deserve a man to whom I am the world, to whom I am number one priority in life. Whose heart would break if he would see a tear in my face, if not a tear from joy..

All I can think is that how dumb can I be by letting you make me feel like this? Why didn`t I listen to the people around me. Why did I listen to my heart and went for it...again? But you know love, at the end you will loose more, you loose me.

For now what ever happens, thank you for all the memories, I will cherish them in my heart for ever. And thank you for making me stronger in a way. At the moment my heart is so fragile, if you would just know. My mask has become pretty good during these years with you... You know that despite all my heart is still pure gold and we will only wait and see if you really are the man to own it for ever...

Ps. I will always love you! You are the love of my life. I just don`t know anymore... If you plan to continue like this could I at least get my heart back???

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The top three pictures are taken by my friend Dorit Salutskij and the boy is her adorable Milo. Thank you for letting me use them. The poem and last picture are from the internet.

Arrivederci amore?

Beyonce- If I Were A Boy

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If I were a boy even just for a day

I'd roll out of bed in the morning

And throw on what I wanted

And go Drink beer with the guys

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And chase after girls

I'd kick it with who I wanted

And I'd never get confronted for it

Cause they stick up for me

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If I were a boy

I think I could understand

How it feels to love a girl

I swear I'd be a better man

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I'd listen to her

Cause I know how it hurts

When you lose the one you wanted

Cause he's taking you for granted

And everything you had got destroyed

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If I were a boy

I would turn off my phone

Tell everyone it's broken

So they'd think that I was sleeping alone

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I’d put myself first

And make the rules as I go

Cause I know that she’ll be faithful

Waiting for me to come home, to come home.

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If I were a boy

I think I could understand

How it feels to love a girl

I swear I'd be a better man

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I'd listen to her

Cause I know how it hurts

When you lose the one you wanted

Cause he's taking you for granted

And everything you had got destroyed

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It's a little too late for you to come back

Say it's just a mistake

Think i'd forgive you like that

If you thought I would wait for you

You thought wrong

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But you're just a boy

You don't understand

And you don't understand, ohhhh

How it feels to love a girl

Someday you wish you were a better man

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You don't listen to her

You don't care how it hurts

Until you lose the one you wanted

Cause you're taking her for granted

And everything you had got destroyed

But you're just a boy

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I love this song, though it always makes me so sad...

The video is here.

Ho sempre sonno...

I feel sleepy all the time. I am back to drinking at least 3 espressos per day (not yet double like last summer). That is a lot for a girl who didn`t drink coffee before moving here. After the two collections I handed in last week, I started the two new ones right away. Not a change to have a break or sleep. This week after the fashion shows I have had hard time concentrating into my final works... My mind is flying somewhere in an other galaxy... ;o)

This ad I saw while waiting for the metro yesterday... I miss Lapland and real winter.

There are some things that make me question...

1. I witnessed the 4th protest of something this week. (Nobody ever knows what it is about...) What is going on in this country??? The funniest was yesterday when getting up from my Porta Genova metro and I saw at least 20 carabinieri with full gear. I was thinking: "What?", until I saw 4 people walking with banners and the traffic completely stopped. Hah haaa, so funny! Okay, the other manifests were way bigger than that.

2. Why do my neighbours say "salve" in the courtyard? Why not "buon giorno" or "ciao"?

3. I have an addiction to Nutella... Why is the chocolate always after eating around my entire face? Pretty much until my nose... ;o)

4. Why are Italian fruits cheaper in Finland than in Italy? Can`t understand it...

5. When I buy kiwi-fruits they are hard as rocks... I have to wait for a week them to ripen. So strange! Why are they always raw???

6. Why are Italians so full of empty promises? That is something that I won`t get used to... I don`t open up my mouth unless I plan to do what I say.... Like come on!!!!!!

7. In love, is there really "the one" right person for everyone? How do you know that he or she is "the one"?

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Gotta get back to schoolwork. My blond head is just too full of thoughts... I might need a class of sparkling and some chocolate to keep going on with my studies... ;o)

Sfilate di Fujiwara

On Tuesday afternoon I helped in the last fashionshow of the "week". It was Japanese Giuliano Fujiwara`s show. The silhouette was slim and minimal with all the clothing. The models were boys compared to the other shows.

It was a great experience to see how this designer works compared to the English lady and Italian men... The discipline backstage was totally different than in the other shows. I can`t complain though, the show was arranged perfectly and everything worked, but still I kinda missed the relaxed party feeling what we had backstage at Vivienne Westwood.

This men`s fashionweek was a great experience and I am hoping to work for the women`s fashion week in February as well. I got great memories and really cool friends. ;o) The pictures from Frankie Morello party can`t be published here in the blog, so sorry... ;o) All I can say that IT WAS AMAZING!!!!

Sfilate di Vivienne Westwood 2

I had so much cool pictures of yesterday`s backstage that I need to share them with you. Here I am with the Gardener Andy and my model boy that I helped to dress and undress.

One of the outfits, pretty floral... ;)

This outfit got for sure the most attention... mini tights and the huge colorful sweater. I have to say that Vivienne Westwood and his team have done a great job. The clothing was funny and she for sure is an artist... I don`t know how many pieces of certain sweaters, long skirts or high heel boots will be sold, but the show looked amazing. Hih...

The models and "Vivienne"...

This outfit was crazy... ;o)

Sfilate di Vivienne Westwood

What a blast today at the fashion shows. First in the morning (too early) I worked at the backstage of Frankie Morello. It was fun! The models were boys and the feeling backstage was a bit stiff. Despite that I liked it, it was my first experience working there. I saw the designers, all the interviews and tv cameras... Cool! And of course the champagne after the amazing show. Wow, the designers really were magnificent.

The next show after the lunch was Vivienne Westwood. It was so much fun working there. We arrived 2 hours earlier than the show was supposed to start so we got to see a lot...

Vivienne Westwood`s inspiration was her own gardener Andy.

The atmosphere backstage was pretty much this... ;o)

Me and my model boys... ;o)

Sei cose da me

I got an invitation from Isopeikko to reveal six random things about myself... Hmmm, I don`t even know where to begin. 1. I love fashion magazines. I have lived in Milan only for less than 10 months, but the pile I already have is almost 1,5 meters. I need them for school and my studies... and I just love to see all the latest stylings and fashion shows in Vogue, Elle, Collezione, Fashion Show and Book Moda etc. I don`t even want to think how much money is in that pile or how in earth I am going to transfer them when ever I need to move in the future...

2. I eat a lot of fruits every day, I don`t think that I could live without them. There wouldn`t be much left to eat... meaning that I am kinda picky with all the food.

3. I adore Chanel`s parfyms. My ultimate favourite is Allure Sensuelle. I had a rule not to buy my own parfyms, but I had to make an exception when flying home to Finland for x-mas. I had been without my scent for more than a month. Disaster, hah... ;o)

4. I love champagne. I don`t think that there has to be a special reason when to enjoy it. I feel that every day is worth celebrating.

5. I have a strange addiction to Nutella. I eat it with warm toast or piadine. Really really really bad habit thinking of the coming bikini-season.

6. I love to wear wool sucks at home. My toes are always freezing. The ones that old grandmoms make are the best. ;o)

This was easier than I thought... I could actually continue my list. Now I just have to ask six new people to take apart for this. I would like to hear what Katariina, Karkki, Kazza, Ellen, Paperina and Itkupilli have to share.

*The rules of The Six Random Things About Yourself:
1) Link to the person who tagged you. 2) Post the rules on your blog. 3) Write six random things about yourself. 4) Tag six people at the end of your post and link to them. 5) Let each person know they’ve been tagged and leave a comment on their blog. 6) Let the tagger know when your entry is up.

Un giorno strano

What a day yesterday... I made it to the school on time despite sleeping only a few hours ( just normal for a student studying in Marangoni) and I was really excited to see my friends who had only now returned from their vacations. I am still schocked of my dear friend from Israel telling me that he returned from the war. (I know Gaza, Israel, Hamas, but still...) I feel terrible that I have spent a great time back in Finland and he has spent his 2,5 weeks under ground in bunkers hoping not to get killed. What is wrong with the world today? I feel now that I have been living in the bubble and it is bursting little by little...

Our fashion classes were cancelled, unfortunately, but we stayed working at school. The deadline will be tomorrow anyways, with or without my teachers help. We had a great lunch in my favourite bar and continued working with patternmaking. I so like that class. I can make all the clothing I design... At the moment I am making beautiful coctail dressess.

After school we went for a dinner to the Chinese restaurant, La Felicità. It is in the Michelin Star- quide and it was really good. (Not too expensive even...) It was really late when we left there and I just wanted to get home to continue my schoolwork. I walked to Lanza planning to take the metro, but found out all the trams, metros and busses stopped there. I was in the middle of manifest of Israeli people, polizia and carabinieri. Damn! It was late, me blond and I was for sure in the wrong place at the wrong time. One "gentleman" walking his dog promised to take me home. What!?! Thank god I found a taxi and made it SAFELY home. Welcome to the real life!!!

Kiss Kiss

I am still so happy with my great vacation in Finland. I can`t wait to go back again, hopefully before next christmas. I feel that before I moved to Milan I really felt uneasy living there, I needed a change, badly. Now I have gotten things arranged a bit in my mind, because I might even consider moving back there one day... or maybe then I`ll just get a cabin in the Lapland... ;o)

This week my life has been school, (we were only 5 students back from x-mas break, private teaching big time) making the collections and meeting my Finnish friends, I so missed them. I have seen them all separately, we really should arrange something with everyone together. Teemu promised to help me with my jobhunt later on. Great! Can`t wait! It will be so interested... in the land of empty promises. ;o)

Hmmm.... I haven`t made a single new year`s promise, not even to stop eating candies or drink champagne... Why should I? Life is too short to lack something you enjoy doing. Okay, maybe I should promise to buy less shoes or bags... but why would I do that??? I know someone who always promises to stop buying cars and he never can stick to that promise either... Cars are just his passion... I think that I can live with that, if he can live with my addiction to high heels. ;o)

Ps. If I am getting visitors from Finland, I am not going to host anybody without not bringing me Kiss Kiss-candies from the airport. I am hooked to them... AND THAT IS A PROMISE!!! ;o)

Milano Gennaio 2009

I returned home to Milan yesterday from Finland. I had a great vacation with my family and friends. My mind and body really needed the break from school and life here.

My daddy was so sweet to take me to Helsinki... again waking up in the middle of night and driving 500km. What would I do without him? Hih hih... The flight was delayed, because the airport of Malpensa was closed!!!!!! Yeah, too much snow....white like home in Rauma.

When I finally made it home through all the snow, I found my appartment freezing. I kinda knew it, but it was colder than I thought, +5C. I turned on the gas, lit all the candles and put on the heater which I brought from Finland, but still it was freezing cold. I ended up spending the evening under covers, dresses like a snowman and watching soaps. Nice!!!

It is still chilly inside, but warm tea helps a bit... ;o)

I went for a quick walk to take these pictures from Naviglio and close to my house. It was so beautiful...

One of my favourite restaurants, Officina 12.

Inner courtyard where I was for the coctail party in September, looking cool.

Just outside my supermarket...

This is from my courtyard. I now know that in the future I want to live somewhere where is a real winter or then have a cabin in the Alps or Finnish Lapland. I love snow!!! Now back to reality and working with my collections. It is good to be back! I can`t wait to see my friends again..

A casa in Finlandia

I love snow and it has been absolutely beautiful weather for the last couple of days... I feel sad leaving Finland early on Tuesday morning. Hopefully it will be white back home in Milan as well. Tomorrow to Turku to meet my friends again. I don`t know when to return here the next time. Kinda sad...

Due giorni molto divertenti...

I used to travel quite a lot before moving to Milan and starting to study there. Everybody always thinks that travelling is pure pleasure, but about one year ago I was sick and tired of all the packing, unpacking, timetables and living from my suitcase. Now I have had a break for enough and I have started to miss it again... After the holidays I travelled to Turku to meet my friends. I had a great day with my friend and in the evening met my girlfriends for dinner at Bossa. It was so much fun to see them again. It is always difficult to get everybody around the same table, the same day, the same time, but we did pretty well together this time. After the dinner we continued to Poro and Rento with Hanna, Jenni and Niina.

My dear dear friend Jenni...

...and Hanna.

On the New year`s eve I changed my party city to Helsinki. I met my other friends there and spent the night celebrating with Sanna. We were in Radisson SAS, where 3 guys hosted a huge party in the suites. So much fun... and new aquaintances. ;o) Sometime at night we left to Lux Black and White. I don`t know whose idea it was to visit also Teatteri`s VIP. The champagne was good there as well. ;o)

I know the parties are always crazy in Helsinki, but this.... for sure wasn`t my fault. Great afterparty as well and on my way back to Rauma on Thursday I slept like a baby. So good to be back at my parent`s place relaxing a few more days before returning to Milan. Happy new years for everybody!!!